reading Essays in Love...

Finally start reading this book...

feeling pessimistic while just reading the first two chapters, but what was written is so true. We are always so used to lied to ourselves when you start feeling good/love towards someone, trusting feelings that are (indeed) created by our own, and having expectations that shouldn't exist?!

Fact is cruel, as always.



Quotes...

'My mistake was to confuse a destiny to love with a destiny to love a given person.'

'Yet we can perhaps only ever fall in love without knowing quite who we have fallen in love with. The initial convulsion is necessarily founded on ignorance.'

Song of the Nite: 記念

下班的時候, 只是好想喝蕃茄薯仔湯而已...

聞著那般香味, 回憶竟然跑到4年前的Brisbane.
原來我上一次煲蕃茄薯仔湯, 已經是4年前...

想起好多往事, 它們已沒有像以前一樣死纏不放過我, 但讓我有種無力感.
不過, 我就是這樣, 每天每天, 學會了一點一點...



那一瞬間 你終於發現
心中的愛和思念 都只是屬於自己




願你一切安好.
日子過得幸福, 快樂.



記念 – 蔡健雅

想念變成一條線
在時間裡面漫延
長得可以把世界
切成了兩個面
他在春天那一邊
你的秋天剛落葉 剛落葉

如果從此不見面
讓你憑記憶想念
本來這段愛情可以
記得很完美
他的樣子已改變
有新伴侶的氣味 的氣味

那一瞬間 你終於發現
那曾深愛過的人
早在告別的那天
已消失在這個世界

也許那一次見面
是生命給你機會
瞭解愛只是人所
渴望的投射面
只是渴望會改變
他的愛已經不見 已不見

那一瞬間 你終於發現
那曾深愛過的人
早在告別的那天
已消失在這個世界

那一瞬間 你終於發現
心中的愛和思念
都只是屬於自己
曾經擁有過
曾經擁有過
曾經擁有過 的紀念

another good year, ahead

this is written in my pocket diary at the start of 2010.
and find out i'll continue to do the same in 2011....

and more challenges are coming

which is good.
:)


another busy year is over and it was a good and thoughtful one and probably...

it had strengthened my belief... i really think something must be done, no matter how busy such as... helping those in need, with my professional knowledge

that's why i'll continue to do this... and hope more colleagues will join us...

and i enjoyed meeting new ppl, those from different walks of life and from anywhere

it's lots of sweat, lots of anger but... lots of fun.

i'm looking forward to a good and exciting year ahead...
challenges are coming :)

昨天晚上我夢見你

我的記憶太差, 究竟是一個什麼樣的夢, 我醒來已經忘得一乾二淨.

我只記得, 從開始至結束, 我都握緊你的手. 緊緊的.

起來的時候, 蠻溫暖的.



雖然是一個不知什麼的夢, 卻感到好溫暖.


是你的手給我的溫暖, 是嗎.



只想記下這種淡淡的溫暖感覺.




p.s.
就因為這樣, 還有你的來電
我今天好開心.
傻瓜.

you'll never learn if...

Quote from Rene Liu's Weibo... so true.

I learned from all my painful experience, and learning to be frank to any wrongs I've done.
Thanks for the pain and the wrongs.

人生中總會不斷的做出選擇，有對的，也有錯的。知道承認就好。最怕自我都蒙蔽，以為那些錯的是對的。不過，不經歷些不好的經驗，怎麼知道什麼是好的呢。還是謝謝那曾經痛苦的過程。

After. Another Year

I want a film, so just randomly chosen this one.. (and for sure that it's not going to be shown in Shanghai...)



It's about life in four seasons for a happily married middle-aged couple, realised themselves surrounded by friends and family members who are indeed living unhappily and even in despair.

The story begins in Spring and ends in Winter, the lives of the characters are so simple but you didn't feel any boredom even it's a 2 hour film.
Maybe the couple is so contented with their lives, it gives a great contrast to their friends and family members that have lost their focus in life.

It's a rather inspiring film... whether you can pursue happiness is not what you have achieved or what you have physically... afterall it's an ATTITUDE.

Strange that the film ends in a low... it really does have some message here.

And the surprising thing... the leading actor is an ENGINEERING GEOLOGIST!!! (he even talked about LONDON CLAY in the film LOL)
I love it. haha...


P.S. And watching film in Hong Kong is MUCH CHEAPER than China!! we are so lucky!

Song of the Nite: 最愛是誰

大了, 才明白這首歌.
剛才在收音機聽著, 竟哭了起來...

有經歷, 才會成長.

P.S. For your sharing, my dear.

最愛是誰 - 林子祥
在世間尋覓愛侶
尋獲了但求共聚
然而共處半生都過去
我偏偏又後悔

別了她原為了你
留住愛亦留住罪
誰料伴你的心今已碎
卻有她在夢裡

為何離別了 卻願再相隨
為何能共對 又平淡似水
問如何下去 為何猜不對
何謂愛 其實最愛只有誰

任每天如霧過去
沉默裡任寒風吹
誰人是我一生中最愛
答案可是絕對

為何離別了 卻願再相隨
為何能共對 又平淡似水
問如何下去 為何猜不對
何謂愛 其實最愛只有誰

為何離別了 卻願再相隨
為何能共對 又平淡似水
問如何下去 為何猜不對
何謂愛 誰讓我找到愛的證據

Photo of the Nanjing Trip

南京之旅拍了好多建築, 好多花...
可是, 我最喜歡的就是這張

在路邊胡亂偷拍的
光圈快門沒想到太多就按下去的
一開始就覺得應是黑與白的...

"MORE THAN WORDS"

清明在南京

因清明節國內有調休, 變了一個三天的長假期, 於是去了南京.
有了高鐵, 旅行實在方便了很多. :)

挺喜歡南京所擁有的長久歷史與文化氣息, 因為裡面都有好多故事.
我很喜歡這些故事.

雖然旅途發生了一些令我覺得討厭的事, 我還是享受著這古都的風景.
而我也非常'應節', 去了明孝陵及中山陵, 懷念某個時代的人和發生的種種.. :P

...還有那些櫻花與桃花海, 漂亮極了.
站在花海下, 看著白的粉紅的花配上綠油油的草地與藍藍的天空, 心情愉快.
終於明白為什麼這麼多人喜歡到日本看櫻花去.



要再找一次機會到南京看花去.
下次, 我要和我愛的人一塊兒去.

self reconstruction @shanghai

在上海已工作了三個多月了, 好快工作便要結束回香港了.

今天在倒數著剩下來在上海的日子, 發覺前陣子確實享受一個人自由自在的生活.
可是有得必有失, 一般家務是少不了的(幸運的是我住服務式公寓, 不用打掃)
但我都好愉快, 尤其是一個人逛超級市場(這裡的超級市場都是非常非常非常的大,我太愛逛超市:P), 在想煮什麼做晚餐的時候...
也喜歡靜靜在屋裡看看書看看雜誌, 挺舒服的.

不知道為什麼在香港的時候, 人便懶惰起來(又或者工作確實是又長又忙又累), 往往下班以後都是往街外跑, 吃也從不會想自己動手煮, 在家裡就只會睡...


...而這陣子我也實在太依賴你了, 忘記了我在這裡就應該學習自己面對自己.
(我也知道你是關心我的,常常弄得我滿感動的)


要好好記住, 這段獨處的時光.
希望把上海有些好習慣帶回家, 學會慢一點生活.

我還在學習面對自己, 學習怎樣去獨個兒面對生活.

P.S.不知道你還有沒有看這裡...只想說, 我們都要努力重新調整自己...
要先處理自己, 才可以和那個懂你的人, 一起走下去... :)