Song of the Nite: Fix You

Can't switch off tonight...
probably it's kinda adjustment taking place.

I need to be strong, to keep moving on the road completely unknown to me...


Song for tonight -
and found out I didn't listen to Coldplay for ages.



Fix You - Coldplay

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

I see a stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
I see a stream down your face
And I

I see a stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from all my mistakes
I see a stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Life must go on, no matter what

For the time being, please let myself stay away from you, as far as i could.

my life is, for the moment, on my own still...

sounds sad, but i'm sure that there is that someone waiting for me not far far away...
not necessarily you, though.


thanks princess, i dun like to hear your words but it's always the way life should be.

keep learning, Y


i should know how to cheer myself up, no need for other's shoulder for now.

My famiy trip is over...

It's another experience traveling with family... feel bad that my parents get so exhausted to follow my itinerary, next time I should keep slow and adapt their pace...

However, it's contented as I can feel papa & mama so happy with bro and myself accompanying them, this is the happiest thing for all of us.

And it's a meditation journey for myself as well, when we visited to buddist island, Pu Tuo Shan.
... there are things I should just LET IT BE. No expectation on others but just expecting myself. A good reminder for myself anyways.

At times... they were noisy, they re-arranged my apartment which pissed me, they were making me mad at some time of the journey as they didn't follow my schedule.

But when they are gone, when my apartment becomes quiet as usual....

I miss you, lovely bro, papa and mama

Well, it's time for all of us to back to our routine.

Indeed, we should keep it up and have an annual family trip from now on... need some quality time with my beloved family.

:)

reading Essays in Love...

Finally start reading this book...

feeling pessimistic while just reading the first two chapters, but what was written is so true. We are always so used to lied to ourselves when you start feeling good/love towards someone, trusting feelings that are (indeed) created by our own, and having expectations that shouldn't exist?!

Fact is cruel, as always.



Quotes...

'My mistake was to confuse a destiny to love with a destiny to love a given person.'

'Yet we can perhaps only ever fall in love without knowing quite who we have fallen in love with. The initial convulsion is necessarily founded on ignorance.'

Song of the Nite: 記念

下班的時候, 只是好想喝蕃茄薯仔湯而已...

聞著那般香味, 回憶竟然跑到4年前的Brisbane.
原來我上一次煲蕃茄薯仔湯, 已經是4年前...

想起好多往事, 它們已沒有像以前一樣死纏不放過我, 但讓我有種無力感.
不過, 我就是這樣, 每天每天, 學會了一點一點...



那一瞬間 你終於發現
心中的愛和思念 都只是屬於自己




願你一切安好.
日子過得幸福, 快樂.



記念 – 蔡健雅

想念變成一條線
在時間裡面漫延
長得可以把世界
切成了兩個面
他在春天那一邊
你的秋天剛落葉 剛落葉

如果從此不見面
讓你憑記憶想念
本來這段愛情可以
記得很完美
他的樣子已改變
有新伴侶的氣味 的氣味

那一瞬間 你終於發現
那曾深愛過的人
早在告別的那天
已消失在這個世界

也許那一次見面
是生命給你機會
瞭解愛只是人所
渴望的投射面
只是渴望會改變
他的愛已經不見 已不見

那一瞬間 你終於發現
那曾深愛過的人
早在告別的那天
已消失在這個世界

那一瞬間 你終於發現
心中的愛和思念
都只是屬於自己
曾經擁有過
曾經擁有過
曾經擁有過 的紀念

another good year, ahead

this is written in my pocket diary at the start of 2010.
and find out i'll continue to do the same in 2011....

and more challenges are coming

which is good.
:)


another busy year is over and it was a good and thoughtful one and probably...

it had strengthened my belief... i really think something must be done, no matter how busy such as... helping those in need, with my professional knowledge

that's why i'll continue to do this... and hope more colleagues will join us...

and i enjoyed meeting new ppl, those from different walks of life and from anywhere

it's lots of sweat, lots of anger but... lots of fun.

i'm looking forward to a good and exciting year ahead...
challenges are coming :)

昨天晚上我夢見你

我的記憶太差, 究竟是一個什麼樣的夢, 我醒來已經忘得一乾二淨.

我只記得, 從開始至結束, 我都握緊你的手. 緊緊的.

起來的時候, 蠻溫暖的.



雖然是一個不知什麼的夢, 卻感到好溫暖.


是你的手給我的溫暖, 是嗎.



只想記下這種淡淡的溫暖感覺.




p.s.
就因為這樣, 還有你的來電
我今天好開心.
傻瓜.

you'll never learn if...

Quote from Rene Liu's Weibo... so true.

I learned from all my painful experience, and learning to be frank to any wrongs I've done.
Thanks for the pain and the wrongs.

人生中總會不斷的做出選擇，有對的，也有錯的。知道承認就好。最怕自我都蒙蔽，以為那些錯的是對的。不過，不經歷些不好的經驗，怎麼知道什麼是好的呢。還是謝謝那曾經痛苦的過程。

After. Another Year

I want a film, so just randomly chosen this one.. (and for sure that it's not going to be shown in Shanghai...)



It's about life in four seasons for a happily married middle-aged couple, realised themselves surrounded by friends and family members who are indeed living unhappily and even in despair.

The story begins in Spring and ends in Winter, the lives of the characters are so simple but you didn't feel any boredom even it's a 2 hour film.
Maybe the couple is so contented with their lives, it gives a great contrast to their friends and family members that have lost their focus in life.

It's a rather inspiring film... whether you can pursue happiness is not what you have achieved or what you have physically... afterall it's an ATTITUDE.

Strange that the film ends in a low... it really does have some message here.

And the surprising thing... the leading actor is an ENGINEERING GEOLOGIST!!! (he even talked about LONDON CLAY in the film LOL)
I love it. haha...


P.S. And watching film in Hong Kong is MUCH CHEAPER than China!! we are so lucky!

Song of the Nite: 最愛是誰

大了, 才明白這首歌.
剛才在收音機聽著, 竟哭了起來...

有經歷, 才會成長.

P.S. For your sharing, my dear.

最愛是誰 - 林子祥
在世間尋覓愛侶
尋獲了但求共聚
然而共處半生都過去
我偏偏又後悔

別了她原為了你
留住愛亦留住罪
誰料伴你的心今已碎
卻有她在夢裡

為何離別了 卻願再相隨
為何能共對 又平淡似水
問如何下去 為何猜不對
何謂愛 其實最愛只有誰

任每天如霧過去
沉默裡任寒風吹
誰人是我一生中最愛
答案可是絕對

為何離別了 卻願再相隨
為何能共對 又平淡似水
問如何下去 為何猜不對
何謂愛 其實最愛只有誰

為何離別了 卻願再相隨
為何能共對 又平淡似水
問如何下去 為何猜不對
何謂愛 誰讓我找到愛的證據

Photo of the Nanjing Trip

南京之旅拍了好多建築, 好多花...
可是, 我最喜歡的就是這張

在路邊胡亂偷拍的
光圈快門沒想到太多就按下去的
一開始就覺得應是黑與白的...

"MORE THAN WORDS"

清明在南京

因清明節國內有調休, 變了一個三天的長假期, 於是去了南京.
有了高鐵, 旅行實在方便了很多. :)

挺喜歡南京所擁有的長久歷史與文化氣息, 因為裡面都有好多故事.
我很喜歡這些故事.

雖然旅途發生了一些令我覺得討厭的事, 我還是享受著這古都的風景.
而我也非常'應節', 去了明孝陵及中山陵, 懷念某個時代的人和發生的種種.. :P

...還有那些櫻花與桃花海, 漂亮極了.
站在花海下, 看著白的粉紅的花配上綠油油的草地與藍藍的天空, 心情愉快.
終於明白為什麼這麼多人喜歡到日本看櫻花去.



要再找一次機會到南京看花去.
下次, 我要和我愛的人一塊兒去.

self reconstruction @shanghai

在上海已工作了三個多月了, 好快工作便要結束回香港了.

今天在倒數著剩下來在上海的日子, 發覺前陣子確實享受一個人自由自在的生活.
可是有得必有失, 一般家務是少不了的(幸運的是我住服務式公寓, 不用打掃)
但我都好愉快, 尤其是一個人逛超級市場(這裡的超級市場都是非常非常非常的大,我太愛逛超市:P), 在想煮什麼做晚餐的時候...
也喜歡靜靜在屋裡看看書看看雜誌, 挺舒服的.

不知道為什麼在香港的時候, 人便懶惰起來(又或者工作確實是又長又忙又累), 往往下班以後都是往街外跑, 吃也從不會想自己動手煮, 在家裡就只會睡...


...而這陣子我也實在太依賴你了, 忘記了我在這裡就應該學習自己面對自己.
(我也知道你是關心我的,常常弄得我滿感動的)


要好好記住, 這段獨處的時光.
希望把上海有些好習慣帶回家, 學會慢一點生活.

我還在學習面對自己, 學習怎樣去獨個兒面對生活.

P.S.不知道你還有沒有看這裡...只想說, 我們都要努力重新調整自己...
要先處理自己, 才可以和那個懂你的人, 一起走下去... :)

For chebee.... / Song of the Nite: 在我身邊

My dearest, you do need a shoulder to share, so...
do disturb me for anywhere, anytime, anything...
as there's nothing unimportant at all.
and you are important to me!!

Remember, the BEST is YET TO COME :)


Song for you.. I'm always by your side...


黃韻玲-在我身邊
當我寂寞的時候 祢就在我身邊
當我感覺無力的時候 祢總給我力量

也曾失落害怕 像隻迷途的羔羊 找不到方向
在黑暗中 祢拉住我 不離棄我 給我盼望


當我徹夜難眠的時候 祢就在我身邊 在我的身邊
當我感覺失望的時候 祢給我安靜的力量

我也曾失落害怕 像隻迷途的羔羊 找不到方向
在黑暗中 祢拉住我 不離棄我 給我盼望

當我徹夜難眠的時候 祢就在我身邊 在我的身邊
當我感覺失望的時候 祢給我安靜的力量
當我感覺失望的時候 祢給我安靜的力量

Song of the Day: 好不容易

是方大同的新歌, 好聽...

他在微博說:「我想給聽眾一種'想要擁抱的幸福感覺'」

聽的時候, 真的有這種感覺...
好期待他的新大碟.

好不容易-方大同
太多人失意
太多人忘記
太多人都說愛情失重無影
愛　也許是我的
愛　也許是他的
愛　也需要你做媒

聽說人呻鳴
聽說人分離
聽說人都說愛也無法證明
壞　別在數我的
怪　別在訴她的
再也不視你的美

我在這裡　帶著你　很值得
一直我會愛著你
心服的　心不捨
一切都不可思議
因為愛的只有你
我已換了自己
我意識到
好不容易　好不容易
好不容易　愛到你

總有人堅定
總有人相信
總有人懂得愛能深刻無底
愛　也許是我的
愛　也許是她的
愛　也許要你做媒

我在這裡　帶著你　很值得
一直我會愛著你
心服的　心不捨
一切都不可思議
因為愛的只有你
我已換了自己
我意識到
好不容易　好不容易
好不容易　愛到你

我還有萬事不會
已聽不少無可到老的承諾
世界裡有多少胡不歸
而我有我知己
陪我度過四季
沒有什麼在這一生可求

我在這裡　帶著你　很值得
一直我會愛著你
心服的　心不捨
一切都不可思議
因為愛的只有你
我已換了自己
我意識到
好不容易　好不容易
好不容易　愛到你

When there is MUSIC, there is PHOTO

A little phototaking exercise @The Bund, Shanghai.



Feel so great as I slowly picked up the mood to shoot, again!
Just share some shots taken ...


and with THEME MUSIC does help me to pick up the mood. :)

I did this when listened to '情人的眼淚' ... so warm & old...
I just can't help asking myself,
"Who will walk with me until the end of the day...?"


and spring is coming soon!

so i hope...

感動

我是個容易被感動的人.

.....
清晨五點半已不能再睡, 卻身心俱疲.

你的來電, 你的小建議, 你的閒聊.
聽起來是閒話家常, 對我來說都很窩心.


蠻感動的...不不, 是很感動才對.
謝謝你.

I'm still the messy ME.

I still remembered my simple reason to start this blog - to brush up my writing skills...

That reason never materialised (and my writing is getting poorer and poorer), interesting though, it seemed to be a record of what I have gone through in these 6 years, a period up till now when I can feel so much about my own life, when I started to have a thought on what my life should be.... with all these peaks and troughs, happiness and laughter, tears and sadness, satisfaction and helplessness, and a lot more.

Though I have not yet figured out what and how my life will be, now I truly appreciate all the ups and downs I have, and I still have a lot to learn in my life.

I love my blog.. haha hope I'll keep on writing and updating...

Just a reminder to myself
每天都是一種新的練習.

About Love

Recalled due to Flo's wedding, it's really thoughtful.
for sharing...

歌林多前書 13:4-8
愛是恆久忍耐、又有恩慈．愛是不嫉妒．愛是不自誇．不張狂．
不作害羞的事．不求自己的益處．不輕易發怒．不計算人的惡．
不喜歡不義．只喜歡真理．
凡事包容．凡事相信．凡事盼望．凡事忍耐。 愛是永不止息．

1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It does not dishonour others. It is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always preseveres.
Love never fails.

To You...... [(I'm) Perfectly Lonely]

說再見, 是不容易的事.

但不能再一起走下去的話,
早一點說再見, 對你對我也是好的.

我相信你會找到你應有的幸福.
一定會的.

Perfectly Lonely - John Mayer
Had a little love, but I spread it thin
Falling in her arms and out again
Made a bad name for my game around town
Tore up my heart, and shut it down

Nothing to do
Nowhere to be
A simple little kind of free
Nothing to do
No one but me
And that's all I need

I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
'Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me

I see friends around from time to time
When their ladies let them slip away
And when they ask me how I'm doing with mine
This is always what I say

Nothing to do
Nowhere to be
A simple little kind of free
Nothing to do
No one to be
Is it really hard to see

Why I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
'Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me

And this is not to say
There never comes a day
I'll take my chances and start again
And when I look behind
On all my younger times
I have to thank the wrongs that led me to a love so strong

I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
'Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me